Hard

This is copied from Etiquette of a Muslima's Tumblr, but it says a lot about what I want to shout out.

As of lately things have been going not so well. It feels like from all corners i am trapped and can’t escape. There are so many things going on right now in my life that is has effected the way i even function, as uncanny & weird as it sounds alhamdulilah for Tumblr, sometimes looking at some of the Muslimah’s pages and seeing hadiths narrated by sahabas & the Prophet salalahu alahi wa’ali wa salaam has instantly put me at ease. But, for now all i do is pray, ya Rab yasir le ammri and ease my pain all around wherever the source may come from. I pray that the Merciful soon bring what i so much yearn for in front of me & that all this will just be a memory. Sometimes though i just stop, on the verge to just fall on the floor, and nearly burst into my own tears, its weird you know? Or maybe what i need to do is stop searching and then whatever it is that i fear or need will come to me. Whatever it is i pray that i am granted the sabr to get through this hard time. Bad days overcome the good but for now im just patiently waiting
nothing is more blessed then duaa made for one, by beautiful souls, so please inshallahi keep me in your du’as
because that is what you all are, beautiful souls.

Missing People and Stuff

I miss Sydney. Seriously. But not up to the point that I'm miserable or anything. But I do miss it. So badly at times.

But then again, if I were there, I'd miss home real badly.

See, we can never be 100% happy. It's impossible in Dunya. Even if it is possible, when we do get to that 100% everything gets awkward and we're haunted by the thought that it doesn't last. Which just lowers the percentage of happiness. Haha. I guess "100%" only exists in Jannah.

What we can do, is just be happy and content, and understand that every single thing on this Earth is temporary. Bersyukur je. Selagi tak bersyukur selagi tu tak kan happy.

I want to be cheerful. So cheerful that even just my presence makes people happy insyaAllah.