Ya Allah.
You know the feeling, when thunders seem to struck every part of you.
Your heart then feels like it's too weighted with happiness and joy that it feels weak.
And then your whole body feels numb.
That's exactly how I feel right now.
After 8 months of not seeing each other,
that short sudden glimpse on the class ooVoo conference call was...
God knows.
Ya Allah, susahnya. Peliharalah perasaan ni.
Sunday, 11 March 2012
Friday, 9 March 2012
Fight or Flight
"Nad, awak jadi naqibah kitorg boleh?"
Ya Allah, beratnya soalan ni.
Baru aku sedar, lama aku x jadi naqibah.
Ni lah kot cara Allah jawab doa-doa aku.
Ni lah kot cara Allah nak jaga aku.
Tak boleh bermanja dah.
Nak fight dengan dengan diri dan pelukan dunia ni ke, nak lari dari jadi naqibah dan pilih jalan mudah (mudah ke?)?
In this same night,
Sakitnya.
Thank you Diyanah. You have no idea how much I wish you were here with me right now.
Ya Allah, beratnya soalan ni.
Baru aku sedar, lama aku x jadi naqibah.
Ni lah kot cara Allah jawab doa-doa aku.
Ni lah kot cara Allah nak jaga aku.
Tak boleh bermanja dah.
Nak fight dengan dengan diri dan pelukan dunia ni ke, nak lari dari jadi naqibah dan pilih jalan mudah (mudah ke?)?
In this same night,
Sakitnya.
Thank you Diyanah. You have no idea how much I wish you were here with me right now.
Thursday, 8 March 2012
Hope
Just because I sometimes lose hope in myself,
Allah's quality yet remains permanent.
His power to forgive and his mercy is always there.
No matter how big my sins get and has gotten,
InsyaAllah, I'll always keep in mind that Allah's mercy is still bigger.
I can't lose hope in myself, and for friends who've been caring so much about me, don't lose hope in me.
Sins have been winning over me, but pray that I haven't given up the control Allah has given me over myself.
I know the sin is not greater than myself and it hasn't got the best of me.
It can still lose.
Allah said He can give forgiveness. Just ask. Put your head down and genuinely ask for forgiveness despite the hugeness of the crime. Tengok apa jadi dekat Saidina Umar. Pehhh.
We'll never know what someone can achieve despite their track records. Allah swt can just clean, sweep up and get rid of previous crimes. Just ask. It's a serious matter coming back to Allah. Ask seriously from Him forgiveness. Not so easy but what other choices are there?
Thanks for the advices thank you for all the love and care family and friends have given me. Thank you for all the care and support.
For the people who go through this same struggle or something along the same lines, people can pass judgement on us easily, but it doesn't change what Allah knows about us and what Allah know about the struggle we go through. Don't take change lightly just because we don't take into heart people's judgements, but take the change hard because we know what Allah knows and Allah's expectation. Despite people's judgements (the bad ones I mean, sometimes these judgements need to be taken as Allah's teguran), it doesn't change Allah's ahkam upon us.
A small soft word can save me so much trouble. Give sincere advices. Don't think words are powerless. You never know how much power Allah can give to powerless words because of your sincerity. Be my genuine friend.
May Allah make us of those who never lose hope in anyone including ourselves.
May Allah give us all barakah.
Let's have the best expectations of Allah.
May Allah give us the best in this life and the next life. Ameen.
Allah's quality yet remains permanent.
His power to forgive and his mercy is always there.
No matter how big my sins get and has gotten,
InsyaAllah, I'll always keep in mind that Allah's mercy is still bigger.
I can't lose hope in myself, and for friends who've been caring so much about me, don't lose hope in me.
Sins have been winning over me, but pray that I haven't given up the control Allah has given me over myself.
I know the sin is not greater than myself and it hasn't got the best of me.
It can still lose.
Allah said He can give forgiveness. Just ask. Put your head down and genuinely ask for forgiveness despite the hugeness of the crime. Tengok apa jadi dekat Saidina Umar. Pehhh.
We'll never know what someone can achieve despite their track records. Allah swt can just clean, sweep up and get rid of previous crimes. Just ask. It's a serious matter coming back to Allah. Ask seriously from Him forgiveness. Not so easy but what other choices are there?
Thanks for the advices thank you for all the love and care family and friends have given me. Thank you for all the care and support.
For the people who go through this same struggle or something along the same lines, people can pass judgement on us easily, but it doesn't change what Allah knows about us and what Allah know about the struggle we go through. Don't take change lightly just because we don't take into heart people's judgements, but take the change hard because we know what Allah knows and Allah's expectation. Despite people's judgements (the bad ones I mean, sometimes these judgements need to be taken as Allah's teguran), it doesn't change Allah's ahkam upon us.
A small soft word can save me so much trouble. Give sincere advices. Don't think words are powerless. You never know how much power Allah can give to powerless words because of your sincerity. Be my genuine friend.
May Allah make us of those who never lose hope in anyone including ourselves.
May Allah give us all barakah.
Let's have the best expectations of Allah.
May Allah give us the best in this life and the next life. Ameen.
Sunday, 4 March 2012
Saturday, 3 March 2012
Fall in Love
"Don’t be afraid to fall in love,
It’s the only thing that matters in life.
Fall in love with as many things as possible."
-Country Strong
Fall in love with Him,
with school
with what we do.
I can't be afraid to fall in love with Islam and all that loving Islam brings to me.
Dunya is no resting place.
I just have to go for it.
It’s the only thing that matters in life.
Fall in love with as many things as possible."
-Country Strong
Fall in love with Him,
with school
with what we do.
I can't be afraid to fall in love with Islam and all that loving Islam brings to me.
Dunya is no resting place.
I just have to go for it.
Friday, 2 March 2012
Choices
"Dan Kami telah menunjukkan dua jalan (kejahatan dan kebajikan)" (90:10)
Semua benda dalam kehidupan,
based on pilihan.
Hisab, refelect balik semua pilihan yang kita buat.
Bila dah terbangun pagi, apa pilihan kita? Nak bangun dan qiam? Atau nak teruskan tidur sampai subuh?
Dan bangun subuh, nak bangun dan terus solat, atau tangguhkan lagi beberapa minit dengan tidur?
Pilihan kita jugak untuk sayang dan tak sayang, untuk bina kekuatan sendiri atau tak. Untuk berjihad atau tak.
Pilihlah untuk kuatkan diri. Cari kekuatan tu. Biar tambah kekuatan untuk buat pilihan yang gravitate towards iman, towards apa yang Allah nak dan bukan apa yang kita nak untuk diri kita.
"Dan sungguh, Allah beserta orang-orang yang berbuat baik." (29:69)
Wallahualam
Semua benda dalam kehidupan,
based on pilihan.
Hisab, refelect balik semua pilihan yang kita buat.
Bila dah terbangun pagi, apa pilihan kita? Nak bangun dan qiam? Atau nak teruskan tidur sampai subuh?
Dan bangun subuh, nak bangun dan terus solat, atau tangguhkan lagi beberapa minit dengan tidur?
Pilihan kita jugak untuk sayang dan tak sayang, untuk bina kekuatan sendiri atau tak. Untuk berjihad atau tak.
Pilihlah untuk kuatkan diri. Cari kekuatan tu. Biar tambah kekuatan untuk buat pilihan yang gravitate towards iman, towards apa yang Allah nak dan bukan apa yang kita nak untuk diri kita.
"Dan sungguh, Allah beserta orang-orang yang berbuat baik." (29:69)
Wallahualam
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