Naked

I want to be frank.

Sometimes, I feel like I've lost everything I could be proud of. I had to return to Malaysia, I can't play any sports anymore, I can't participate in a lot of activities because of the fear that anything bad could happen to me because of my sickness. I get sad a lot. By myself.

The worst part, sometimes people underestimate me because of my incapabilities. They don't understand my sickness, yet they still look down on me because I do nothing. I'm sometimes seen as idle.

I'm trying though, to be as normal as possible. I try my best to cover my sickness. But it's painful when people push me beyond the little capabilities I have and not understand my failure. Not just physically painful, but mentally also.

I can be strong. But it's hard lotsa times.