I truly truly miss Abah.
Even though I never really actually met him, but I've loved him so much,
that i'm crying just thinking about him right now.
Even though I've never heard him say it,
I can really feel his love for me is stronger than any man can ever love me.
I really do wish, hope and pray that everything is fine for him,
that Allah isn't giving him a hard time right now.
And even though I'm a failure,
I hope I can be a better daughter in this dunya,
for him.
A daughter that is blessed, and that my blessings benefit him.
Ameen.
*****
I'm starting to think,
that the only reason I've been having such strong feelings for Shamim,
is because I feel that he's like Abah.
His kindness.
He's gentle.
His care towards me.
He's loving.
But then,
He's a coward.
So he's nothing like Abah.
*emosi*
