This feels truly sad that You had to put me in this sort of situation before I understand the critical state I'm in.
The fact that I'm so so far from You...
I truly feel alone right now. With Sudan, and tests, and my sickness starting to come back again.
I just feel...
Sad.
It's like, when I see how caring Yassin is towards Hakimiey, I want that. Not from Yassin, no. Just, generally. I want someone to care for me like that.
Fine. Who doesn't? Well this is my blog so this is about me. So hah!
I think, the last time I had anyone caring so much for me was in TGB. Diyanah cared for me to the point that she would fight and stand up for me.
She would never let me be hungry, or feel sad or alone.
I don't think anybody's ever replaced her.
So that space in me, that role she played, was left empty till now.
And leaves me in such a lonely place.
:'(
